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Caitlyn Jenner Speaks On Contemplating Suicide Over Paparazzi Photo

Jenner was featured on Any Given Wednesday as she opened up to host to Bill Simmons saying she contemplated committing suicide during her transition. A Papparazzo snapped a photo of Jenner after the removal of her Adam’s apple as she was leaving the doctor’s office.

“I could not sleep that night. I’m up at 3 a.m. walking up and down my hallway, thinking, ‘Damn, all this s–t is going to come out tomorrow and it’s going to be horrible,” she said. “And I said, ‘You know what? Easy way. Go in the other room. You got a gun. Let’s just end it right here.'”

Jenner has shared the story before with her family, fans and friends, added, “That’s, like, the easy way out. No more pain, no more nothing. I don’t have to deal with the tabloids any longer. I don’t have to deal with any of this. And that was probably the lowest I’ve ever gotten.”

“Going through this, I have renewed my excitement for life. My life today is so interesting, so simple. It really is so simple!” she said. “I was in Vegas the other day—I had to give a speech—and I used to go to Vegas for years and years and years, and I liked to go to Vegas because I could sneak around. I could go to my hotel room, dress, cross-dress, actually go out and walk around. I would never talk to anybody because I knew my voice would give me away, and I never got caught. I could go out and just be myself and just walk around. But I had two suitcases. I’d have to talk the nail polish off, then put the nail polish back on. My life was so complicated, you know? And I’m struggling with all these issues. This time I went to Vegas, all I had to do was take one suitcase. I go downstairs, I get dressed, I get ready, I go down and take a few selfies with people through the hotel, give my speech, live authentically. It was so simple!”

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